Not ok but will be ;)

I never planned on having plastic surgery. I really thought I would be OK with whatever I was left with after losing the weight but I'm not. I'm not OK physically and I'm not OK mentally with it. I'm not OK with the pain in the middle of my back from my boobs and panni pulling me down. I'm not OK with having trouble peeing from the weight of my panni on my bladder and the resulting UTI's this causes. I'm not OK with having lost -142 pounds and still feeling like a fat chick when I look in the mirror. I don't really want to "get naked" in this skin. I'm soooo not OK with that ;)

So October 18th I'm officially becoming a Franken Barbie.

I am scheduled for a Lower Body Lift (anchor cut/fleur-de-lis) with Fat Grafting, a Breast Lift and Augmentation, and an Arm Lift. Anyone that knows PS knows this is a heck of a lot to have done at once and my surgeon said he will forsake the Arm Lift for another time if he is not able to complete it in a safe time frame.

I'd be lying if I didn't tell you I was nervous and a little scared but I'm also excited to get this part of my journey underway.