Friday, October 5, 2007

Not ok but will be ;)


I never planned on having plastic surgery. I really thought I would be OK with whatever I was left with after losing the weight but I'm not. I'm not OK physically and I'm not OK mentally with it. I'm not OK with the pain in the middle of my back from my boobs and panni pulling me down. I'm not OK with having trouble peeing from the weight of my panni on my bladder and the resulting UTI's this causes. I'm not OK with having lost -142 pounds and still feeling like a fat chick when I look in the mirror. I don't really want to "get naked" in this skin. I'm soooo not OK with that ;)

So October 18th I'm officially becoming a Franken Barbie.

I am scheduled for a Lower Body Lift (anchor cut/fleur-de-lis) with Fat Grafting, a Breast Lift and Augmentation, and an Arm Lift. Anyone that knows PS knows this is a heck of a lot to have done at once and my surgeon said he will forsake the Arm Lift for another time if he is not able to complete it in a safe time frame.

I'd be lying if I didn't tell you I was nervous and a little scared but I'm also excited to get this part of my journey underway.

18 comments:

Anonymous said...

WOW! I liked the "Frankenbarbie" way of describing the changes you are going to be going through! I always heard that after the surgery people had "little pouches" of skin that drooped, but I guess no one really knows the extent that your body goes though. Not only physical, but the mental part as well. Your going to be a Whole New Person. Just remember NY is routing for you, and once you get aquainted with the NEW you, I'm sure your going to love her!

Inky said...

I am so excited for you Michelle, and I look forward to reading your blog to see how it goes.

Frankenbarbie, now just in time for Halloween :)

Anonymous said...

Michelle,
I am so glad you have your date.
I don't pray much asking for things,(I'm more of a greatful thankful type), but I WILL pray for you.I would love to hear how this goes for you as I am thinking of following you when I'm ready to Mexico.
You are stunning already both in body and soul, so what a masterpiece you'll be afterwards!!!
Congrats and good luck - Michigan has your back
Tara

Flying Sarah said...

Fly little butterfly fly!!!!

Candy-O said...

How totally awesome! I will be thinking of you when I go in for my lapband on October 19th! I know that plastics are in my future as well. Good for you!!!!

So where are you going? Who is the doctor? Your "shopping" list is pretty much exactly what I am anticipating.

Good luck!!! (Start upping your protein now to help with your healing!)

Michelle said...

Hey NY! I hope a few others learn to love "her" too ;)

Michelle said...

Thanks Inky. I'll let everyone know the gory details LOL.

Michelle said...

Sarah, I need to add a music video to this post huh... R Kelly maybe. LOL. Speaking of when's SarahliciousTV going live!

Michelle said...

Thanks so much candy-o, I'm going south of the border again. Here's the link from my consult that will give you a few more details:

http://theworldaccordingtoeggface.blogspot.com/2007/09/fun-and-informative-weekend.html

Emily said...

Congrats!!! I just wanted to say that I had the same P.O.V. a few months ago, about not needing plastics. I was just focused on having the surgery. But throughout this whole time, even still as a pre-op, I realize that I am still way young, and I want to feel good about my body. I hope that, for you, PS will help you turn into the butterfly you wanna be! :D I wish you the best of luck, and I hope the surgery goes very well!!!

Ammie said...

How exciting! I look forward to reading about your experience. Good luck!

Holly said...

So, I'm on Tuesday, and you and Linda (Pinealope) are on Thursday!

I'm feeling a bit jittery about the whole thing, but I'm only doing the LBL that day, the BLw/I is on Dec.6, so I should be good for Thanksgiving and Christmas! You know my heart and prayers will be with you that day! Is Bec being your angel? I'd be happy to be, I'll be home by then, maybe a little groggy, but that's kind of normal for me! LOL Holl

Michelle said...

Emily, Thank you so much. That's exactly it I feel younger and more vibrant then I have ever felt and now I want the body to reflect that :)

Michelle said...

Ammie, Thanks. I'll be posting all the gory details LOL ;)

Michelle said...

Hey Holly, Thanks so much. I know huh we're all in this together!!! Best wishes to you too. I'll be sending prayers. Since I'm going SOTB I don't think I'm doing the angel thing... it's hideous $$ to call the US so I have to reserve that for family but I'll have my Mom let the board know how it went.

Anonymous said...

Your a mentor, a teacher, a beautiful woman = heart and soul....now watch out....we'll see how becoming super hottie reflects in your blog! I can't wait!! My prayers are with you for peace, comfort and a fast healing. Brenda_Marie

Anewbecboo said...

It's a good thing I went to Holly's profile or I'd have missed that you are having your PS already!! I thought I went to your blog pretty frequently, but I missed this one I guess. I miss so much being in the hospital each time!! UGH!!! I'm so happy for you honey, I know how much you want this!! If you need anything let me know. I will be praying for you for sure!!! I know you will be in good hands. love and big hugs, Bec

Kellie said...

Hey Michelle, I'm sure you are recovering about now and probably in alot of pain....I'm so sorry for the pain but I know you get past that soon. I just now seen that you were having surgery so I am sorry I didn't say anything sooner. I am praying for you and I know that God will keep you safe in His loving arms! Also thanks for this wonderful blog! Kellie B. from OH.