Wow as my surgery date gets closer and closer I'm starting to get a little scared I must admit. I keep thinking stupid what if scenarios and I need to stop (power of positive thought) I think that is because I have never had surgery before (well that I remember... I had plastic surgery to re-attach my upper lip at 3 years old... a long gross story) and this is so drastic (being fileted like a fish) plus I have been worrying about stupid shit like not being able to use a straw when I drink and gulping Hello!?! I need to get over this. Make peace now. Plus I don't even know how things will be... just because someone can't do something doesn't mean I won't be able to everyone is different. OK... working through it. Breath.

Health wise I'm feeling crappy right now. I'm completely exhausted (a combination of a lot of extra at work and my apnea), terrible aches and pains, headaches, reflux. I just hope that one day soon that will change. I'm too young to feel like this. I truly believe this surgery is the only option for me. So many profiles I've read on OH have given me inspiration. They all say how great they feel now, how it's the best thing they ever did. I hope to be one of them soon.

So work is interesting... can you say DSM-IV?! This surgery can't come to soon. Change is good.

Amazing Race ended (I love that show) my favorite team won! The Hippies! I think it was the best race so far. Sicily was my favorite. "Thatsa bigga fish" Sicily- It's on my list of gotta do before I kick the big bucket.

Listening to: my yawning... time for bed.